A lost feeling in my heart

It’s 1.32 a.m. but I just couldn’t sleep still.  I miss my best friend “Kwan” who had passed away in last August.  It feel like just yesterday that I’d talked to her before she left for Hua Hin.  A long time friendship had created memories that now keep revealing in my thoughts as a never ending film.  Tears are now falling from my face with so much passions and pains in my heart.  I know that this is life’s way, that’s the way it is, but it’s kinda big change and also a big step for me to move on without her.

I’d always said to her that “Kwan, how are you going to survive without me?”, her always answer is “I couldn’t, I cannot live without you.”.  ………………………...

I was almost a parent for her in every matters and maybe sometimes too much for certain matters in her opinions and some in my opinions.

Days passing by my telling to myself that “Kwan has gone, she had now really gone”, but it seems to me that I could hardly believe the fact.  It was and still it is such a painful feelings to deal with.  I wish she knew that I do miss her and wanted to tell her so badly that I love her so much.

Life is so short even sometimes we feel that life is such a long journey to conquer.

I don’t know where or how she is now and absolutely have no idea, I can just give my best wishes for her awaited future.

My living life is not that great but this is my life to live on.  I couldn’t just give up, I’m on duty, a duty that can never quit until it ends its way.

Best of luck to you “Kwan”, I have always loved you, and always will.

Goodnight honey,

May 1990 – August  2003

… Winds blow …

… Skies change …

… Times pass …

… Friendship stands …

Don.. ( 30/1/2004, edited 17/2/2004)